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21:51 Feb 27 2007
Times Read: 687

With the Spring time nearing and nature changing and all I feel the need in myself to change. To become better. To be on a differant level of existance. To be on another plain in a differant relm. Self improvement seems to be in order.



Not in a bad way though. But to make myself evolve from what I am into something better being the same in all but yet so differant. To be one with nature more. To be one with my soul and mind. To make my body what I feel it should be. To expand my creativity and well being. To open up myself to new and differant things.



I feel that I can do this. As I see it fit to do so. I want to be what I am destined to be. I feel there is much more to me. Things that have not been seen. Things that would make me and others be impressed with my form. Not just physical, but emotional, spiritual and mentaly. I feel I could open up my heart and love more. Knock down the walls I have surronded myself with for years and let the world come in and embrace me and I embrace it. For all that it is and all it can and needs to be.



I feel I need to move on but leave nothing behind but the bad. But to keep them in my mind as learning experiences. I need tonot dwell on the things that are bad or that have been bad. I need create new memories and friends and develope my friendships that I have into bigger and better ones. I need to get to know people better and open up to them and let them know that I am there for them and that I am a true friend..



I need to let my poetic side open up again and let it run wild over the fileds of life. Instead of keeping it in. i also need to let out my artistic side. though I thinkit isnt greta others do. And if my art makes others happy I should use it more to do so. I also need to let out the vampiric side of myself. Let it show and let the blood flow



All in all I feel that I shall become a new creature. In a new light and in darker place as well..

Time After Time
21:28 Feb 14 2007
Times Read: 691

This is for all of those who feel lonley out there, That are my Friends.



Lying in my bed I hear the clock tick,

And think of you

Caught up in circles confusion

Is nothing new

Flashback warm nights

Almost left behind

Suitcases of memories,

Time after



Sometimes you picture me

I’m walking too far ahead

You’re calling to me, I can’t hear

What you’ve said

Then you say go slow

I fall behind

The second hand unwinds



If you’re lost you can look and you will find me

Time after time

If you fall I will catch you I’ll be waiting

Time after time



If you’re lost you can look and you will find me

Time after time

If you fall I will catch you I’ll be waiting

Time after time



After my picture fades and darkness has

Turned to gray

Watching through windows you’re wondering

If I’m ok

Secrets stolen from deep inside

The drum beats out of time



If you’re lost you can look and you will find me

Time after time

If you fall I will catch you I’ll be waiting

Time after time



You said go slow

I fall behind

The second hand unwinds



If you’re lost you can look and you will find me

Time after time

If you fall I will catch you I’ll be waiting

Time after time



If you’re lost you can look and you will find me

Time after time

If you fall I will catch you I’ll be waiting

Time after time



Time after time

Time after time

Time after time

Random Rant That Might Matter
22:34 Feb 09 2007
Times Read: 694




Well I am bored and need to waste some time so I am dfoing this...



I am going to some art show 2night..That should be fun..Oh yay...Hmm what else..I am hyper right now...I was sad earlier then I snaped out of it..Damn Bipolar..Oh well..I like happy better..Anywho...



I wonder what I will eat tonight..WHo has a clue...I want some sweets...



Killer Tofu....That song soooooo ROCKS!!!!!



Looka t me go....CHeese nips make good projectiles..as do marshmellows and grahm crackers...I use to throw them out the car window..I hit a few peopel but not to many maybe 3..But yeah that was fun havent done that in a while..



Coffe can be hott..so be careful...I need some coffee..I love my rants..they make no sense..But the only sense that makes sense is non-sense..Thats like my new quote..I love it..I love stuff..



Ya for this techno...I like candy the kind you eat and wear..I need to make some new candy and wear the stuff i have already made...I like shinny stuff, and stuff that glows...hmmm..i am me..but who cares..well maybe some people..Forever young..Thats what i am and what i will be...youth is in the heart and mind not the body...you can be wrinkly and 92 but be 21 at heart..live life to its fullest. dont live it slow live it fast but stop to admire the little things that matter and take them on your fast paced journey. Life is worth living take the good take the bad take them both and there you have the facts of life..But live dont let the man bring you down. Do what your heart desires..



Love at all cost. Love what you love not what you think others would wnat you to love or what media tells you to love...Love with all your heart and passion..Keep the fire lit. Don't let loves flame burn out...Make it a shinning beckon of light to guide others..Makt that flame a blow tourch...Burn the hate...Kiss the wind...Make everything count...Dont take love for granted even if you get hurt. Life is to short for that. when love passes catch up with it..Love sometimes has to find you. Mr and Mrs right are out there you just have to wait and patience pays off..Love is more rewarding when it matters...Sex is not love though it is fun and its ok to be wild with it..But you will find no greater sex than with the one you love and with your one true love..Sex is an expanssion of the soul. It is two things connecting..Fucking is cheap, sleezy and is for getting off..Sex is when you care and making love is when the emotins make it feel that mutch better..



Find a friend and make it last..Things die to much in this world. DOnt let friendships die over stupid small things..and remeber things can be rebuilt. but rome wasnt built in a day but friendships can be rebuilt with just one hug..Make things you do with your friends unforgetable cause they might not be there and you'll need some memories. Keep your friends closer and your enimies in fear that they might one day be your friend...



The grass isnt always greener on the other side. Sometime it isnt grass at all its astro turf and thats fake grass and you dont want that..Be happy with what you got..If you cant love the one you want love the one you're with...



Little things are sometimes the biggest things in life...A kiss can change a mood..A smile can work like chicken soup...A hug can bind your fears...



Rain drops are fun little things..They are small but after time can make a big puddle..There's always a calm before the storm...But sometimes the storm is what you need..Not the sunshine after wards..Cause it can't rain all the time....But when it does play in it..Make love in it..Make the rain your toy make it a joy...Watch it fall and know that one day those same drops will fall again just like tears the always fall..But tears go away the rain keeps recycling itself...The flow and become more than tears ever can...But its okay to cry, cause emotions need to come out. Noone needs to hold them back..



Be true to yourslef that way..Be ehat you need to be and dont let anything or one stop you...Cause That's what life is about being happy and being yourselfdoing it...



I dont know what else to say..But maybe someone will get something from this